My subconscious was being transformed.
I finally felt ALIGNED with my identity, rather than feeling like a stranger in my own body.
And I had never felt so fully ALIVE.
Like someone had finally plugged in a missing power cord.
I could see and feel light energy all around me…
Even from distant stars and the frozen rock I was living on.
I understand how this may sound strange, but I started to sense the “light” of the people I interacted with.
Some people felt like they were “dim”...
While others felt like they were more fully alive - more full of light.
I actually felt connected to and drawn to this “light energy” in others.
I felt connected to people in a healthy, life-giving way.
I also felt connected to something bigger than myself.
Like I was not just another life form taking up space.
I could tell I was starting to live a fuller life because of my connection to every other living thing.
It felt like I was downloading new insights about my life and my journey…
Messages that weren’t full of condemnation, shame and failure…
But possibility, worth, and value.
I started to sense an intuition I could trust…
Which was completely new for me.
Perhaps most important, I realized, without having to “think” about it…
That I’d been living a life of self-loathing…
I’d been marinating in self-hatred for so long, it had become my default operating system.
But the conductor was already changing all that.